Okay, more like a pound -- but G and I are trying to limit our take out even though its a trick balancing Z's sleep schedule and cooking -- but I've been walking three miles each morning and sneaking in yoga or other exercise videos OnDemand when I can. I'm now pre-pregnancy weight -- but I have thirty pounds more to be pre-infertility weight. I have given myself a goal of Z's first birthday -- that I want to lose 20 more lbs by then -- I would then be what used to be my college danger weight of 165 -- and ten lbs away from the top end of the BMI range for my height. I'm back into size 12 skirts and 14 jeans -- the biggest difference is the fuller upper body too -- since my friends cancer diagnosis I have been very motivated to slim down for long term health -- and since Z's birth I've been determined to make peace with my body, encourage a healthier attitude towards weight loss etc. It's been a challenge because my first inclination is to slash my calories to 1200 and work out like a fiend -- but I can't -- I can't because I value breastfeeding so much and I can't because my schedule doesn't allow for that kind of thing...and this is forcing me to slow down, slow and steady winning the race and all of that.
I have felt phenomenal since quitting dairy five months ago -- though I miss yogurt I've been eating coconut milk based products if I'm really craving the creamy dairy-like things. We're getting a farm share so there's been lots of greens -- and tonight I made a yummy turnip puree and sauteed fresh broccoli in olive oil and red pepper flakes (thank you Bittman.)
The prohibition against dairy only goes so far -- I was no stranger to the chocolate cake for my birthday and, in fact, as is my habit, ate a slice every day until it was gone.
Happy 38th to me. I refuse to be battling weight when I'm 40.
I've been watching Jillian Michael's show and crying. It is amazing how emotional the issue of weight continues to be.
Sorry this is so short but I just wanted to record the progress -- the baby's sleeping and I have a whole half an hour to luxuriate in my aloneness.
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